This writing is for women of a certain age. I am going to be seventy in a few months, and I am discovering so many wonderful things in my life. In some ways I feel like my life is just beginning. Let me introduce myself. My name is Christine McAteer and I am a seeker. I am awakening to the wonder that is my life. I am not winding my life down but i am breaking new ground.
I am a channel, and I am channeling this message. Growing older is a blessing. In so many ways there is so much to be thankful for. I am channeling this message from my higher self. From my oversoul.
Is seventy too old to answer a calling? At any point in life, we can start something new. This is true for you as well as for me. You too are full of wisdom, and you have an opportunity to use the wisdom being given you in this life. You are very special. Even though many times your journey has been devastatingly hard you have so much to offer.
I have lost a son who died at age 38. I was devastated. He was my only child. Yet even though I plunged into a drowning pool of grief and full mourning for him I have recovered in a very wonderful way. I am not depressed.
In the interest of full disclosure, I have been on antidepressants for many years. I have found that the relief I receive from the major depression I suffer from is worth taking the medication. My son died of a drug overdose. The medical reason given was that he had a heart aneurysm but I know that was a result of his many years of using crystal meth. The overdose was cumulative. His organs broke down.
I miss him but I don’t spend my days feeling sad. Sometimes I grieve for him. He became addicted to drugs at a very young age and as young parents my ex-husband and I struggled with him. We made many mistakes but ultimately the decision to use drugs was his own. One thing I learned from the experience of living through his death. I can live through anything and deal with the most devastating things without being destroyed. I came out the other end. It is possible to experience joy and purpose even after the most painful of journeys. I still love my son.
I have had a reading from a medium because I wanted to talk to him. I felt his presence as she made contact with him. It healed my heart. He is happy and talking to him absolved me from the guilt I was carrying over his life. As his mother I took on many burdens I had no control over. I tried to take responsibility for his life. I suffered guilt over him for many years. One of the things I learned in this journey is that I was not responsible for his life. That was for him to carry.
I rejoice in the fact that I am learning that it is not too late to have freshness, purpose and joy in my life. I am retired and have no responsibilities outside of living a happy life with my husband. Starting a new page in your life is possible for you as well. Have an inspiring day and I will talk with you again soon!
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